{"id":5972,"date":"2015-02-07T22:35:14","date_gmt":"2015-02-07T21:35:14","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/?p=5972"},"modified":"2015-02-07T22:35:14","modified_gmt":"2015-02-07T21:35:14","slug":"introspection_fears","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/2015\/02\/07\/introspection_fears\/","title":{"rendered":"Introspection: fears"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Two things I am afraid of:<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>letting people down, disappointing them<\/li>\n<li>poverty in my old age<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>I tend to blame the first one on my upbringing. Expectations were high, and disappointment strongly felt. I think I can already see the same fear in Ingrid although I have tried to not pass this on, but I guess I am not good at pretending.<\/p>\n<p>As for the second, I don&#8217;t really know why I think about this. I don&#8217;t worry about growing old, per se. But I do worry (not actively and daily but occasionally and in the back of my mind) about being old, poor and lonely. Like the little old ladies I see in the streets, painfully shuffling along with their shopping bags.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Two things I am afraid of: letting people down, disappointing them poverty in my old age I tend to blame the first one on my upbringing. Expectations were high, and disappointment strongly felt. I think I can already see the same fear in Ingrid although I have tried to not pass this on, but I [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5972","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-observing_the_self"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5972","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5972"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5972\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5973,"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5972\/revisions\/5973"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=5972"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=5972"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=5972"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}