{"id":316,"date":"2007-04-03T21:54:21","date_gmt":"2007-04-04T02:54:21","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/wordpress\/?p=316"},"modified":"2007-04-03T21:54:21","modified_gmt":"2007-04-04T02:54:21","slug":"first-day-mixed-feelings","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/2007\/04\/03\/first-day-mixed-feelings\/","title":{"rendered":"First day &ndash; mixed feelings"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>\nIt felt good to be working again, to do something productive and interesting.\n<\/p>\n<p>\nIt felt good to be digging around in code. I enjoyed myself.\n<\/p>\n<p>\nIt felt strangely familiar, as if I hadn&rsquo;t been gone.\n<\/p>\n<p>\nIt felt bad to be so in such a rush. Not a minute to spare in the morning (from getting up to getting to work), 20 minutes to spare in the evening (between Ingrid&rsquo;s meal and her bath).\n<\/p>\n<p>\nIt felt bad not to be able to spend more time with Ingrid. I feed her and then I have to leave her &ndash; no time to stay around and play or cuddle, because even as it is the two feeds take a good 40 minutes out of my working day.\n<\/p>\n<p>\nIt felt strange to not really know how she is doing during the day. At home I see and hear her all the time, so I always know how she is feeling. Tired? Grumpy? Bored? Active? Sociable? Now all I get is a quick summary&#8230; A distance between us that wasn&rsquo;t there before.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It felt good to be working again, to do something productive and interesting. It felt good to be digging around in code. I enjoyed myself. It felt strangely familiar, as if I hadn&rsquo;t been gone. It felt bad to be so in such a rush. Not a minute to spare in the morning (from getting [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-316","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-observing_the_self"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/316","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=316"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/316\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=316"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=316"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=316"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}