\nLooking at things objectively (trying to, at least) we’re doing great. Ingrid is eating, sleeping, gaining weight. I am eating, sleeping, and not losing too much weight. But I find it hard to be satisfied. It’s not that I am dissatisfied… I just want things to be even better – NOW.\n<\/p>\n
\nDuring the first few days I wished I wasn’t so sore and exhausted. I got that.
\nThe rest of week 1 I wished that breastfeeding wouldn’t hurt so. I got that.
\nWeek 2 I wished for more predictability and routine, and to have time and energy to at least eat regularly. I got that.
\nWeek 3 I wished that Ingrid could fall asleep without an hour of fuss – shushing, rocking, holding, dummy-popping etc. We’re sort of getting there – sometimes it only takes 20 minutes, and sometimes we just give up after a while and let her fall asleep with the dummy.\n<\/p>\n
\nIf week 1 had gone as well as today, or even if I had known that everything will go so well so soon, I would have been ecstatic! But now that we’re here, instead of being satisfied, I wish for more… I wish we could find a predictable way to get her to fall asleep when she is asleep, and I wish I had time and energy for something other than making sure the two of us eat and sleep enough.\n<\/p>\n
\nAll of these things have seemed completely inachievable, which is very frustrating. (Much of that hopelessness has probably been due to my constant tiredness. Things always seem a lot worse when you’re tired!) And now is no different. At least now I know enough to recognise the pattern and know that what I want will indeed be achievable, and even quite soon (if the pattern repeats itself).\n<\/p>\n
\nI guess its human nature to never be quite satisfied. Or my nature, at least.\n<\/p>\n
\nEdited on November 6th at 3:30 AM<\/i><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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