{"id":12448,"date":"2020-03-01T21:55:14","date_gmt":"2020-03-01T20:55:14","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/?p=12448"},"modified":"2020-03-03T22:03:42","modified_gmt":"2020-03-03T21:03:42","slug":"daily_1877","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/2020\/03\/01\/daily_1877\/","title":{"rendered":"Daily: 1877"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"\/helen\/blog\/images\/daily_2\/1877_Adrian_2.jpg\" class=\"x45y6\" \/><br \/>\n<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"\/helen\/blog\/images\/daily_2\/1877_Adrian_1.jpg\" class=\"x45y6\" \/><br \/>\nI slept really, really badly today and have been tired and listless all day. Had no energy for anything other than reading.<\/p>\n<p>Sometimes my sleep goes wrong. I hover on the edge of sleep and dream weird dreams all night and don&#8217;t get any deep, restful sleep at all. They&#8217;re not exactly nightmares, not quite &#8211; no dreams of falling or being chased &#8211; but the dreams are all about something being wrong. I&#8217;m going to gym class but I&#8217;m wearing heavy boots. I&#8217;m in a stairwell and I need to go up but the stairs are not there. I&#8217;m in a home (that&#8217;s not my real home but it is my home in the dream) but the furniture has been rearranged. I&#8217;m in my last year of university but I realize I haven&#8217;t taken any of the required courses. And so on. I wake up in the morning and I feel like I&#8217;ve barely slept.<\/p>\n<hr \/>\n<p>Adrian, starving for contact, sat next to me in the sofa and browsed my blog, especially all posts in the &#8220;Adrian&#8221; category, and showed his favourites to me. From the first photos of him as a baby, to the last few days&#8217; posts about \u00c5re.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I slept really, really badly today and have been tired and listless all day. Had no energy for anything other than reading. Sometimes my sleep goes wrong. I hover on the edge of sleep and dream weird dreams all night and don&#8217;t get any deep, restful sleep at all. They&#8217;re not exactly nightmares, not quite [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[633,18,4,768],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-12448","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-adrian","category-dailies","category-observing_the_self","category-photography-2"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12448","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=12448"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12448\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12451,"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12448\/revisions\/12451"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=12448"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=12448"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.toomik.net\/helen\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=12448"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}